I'm totally done with STF4 I just cant do it. I tried i really tried and i actually like the game but its not even fun anymore. every online match Ive had in the past 4 months has been 100% fail on my end. no matter what i try i just get owned and humiliated. I'm not usually the type to quit something. i mean ive played the game seance i was a kid and have had my amazing matches but, with he way the new fight system is on this version, I'm just screwed.

every online match is ether some person that spams moves from a distance and knocks you back if you get close, or someone who spams close moves and chips your damage away. At least in 3rd strike the counter system stopped shit like that. you could shoot fire balls till your face turned blue, but the counter system would stop every one of them and not make you lose health. I understand the new system, but you still lose health. i understand you regain it, but whats the point of it if your still going to lose the health. by the time i actually fight someone that has skill and doesn't do cheep shit all day, I'm already worn out and feeling defeated.

Tomorrow I'm going o see him much i can get for the game. if i can get at least 30 dollars I'm keeping it.

Looking forward to getting back to work, go 3D!

Well like the title says im just not doing to well. Lately ive been getting depressed for no reasons sometime. sometimes its something simple, other times its so bad that it causes me to act out in odd ways. Sadly sometimes it causes me to act out towards my mate. Losing trust in his friends, questioning him, acting out for attention, and etc. It makes it a bit worse that i cant see him nor be with him due to distance so it makes me me feel a little worse. I love the poor guy so much that I'm making my self depressed.

Besides that I'm not exactly getting out. I'm always at home or school, no work, not hanging out with friends, just alienating my self from everyone and everything. Between being broke, not finding work, school, homework, needing money for homework, not seeing friends, not being able to see my bf, I'm starting to crash. about 2 weeks ago i cut my self for the first time ever. Didn't make me feel any better, but it was so odd that i did it, i didn't even like it. sence then i get rather weird thoughts from time to time to harm my self. i never do it, i just say a prayer and express my feelings on paper. Recently i did a drawing of my fury character committing a hara-kiri (ill be posting soon). when i finished i felt better but again i was amazed i drew something like that.

Ive recently put posts on lonestar furs and pounced to try and meet more furs in my area so i can get out of the house and start meeting people. I just wish things would work faster. hell if anything i just wish i could be with my dizzie, but we all cant have what we want. I promise to stay strong for him and never give up, but lately cause of my outbursts and such, i keep thinking in the back of my head "you need to stop this right now!!!! you wanna drive him away?" My councilor says i need to get out and meet people so i hope the posts i made and the recent applications i put out will help me with that. It's hard to break this cycle, but I'm trying hard to. I try to look forward and stay optimistic like i used to but its so hard when all i can really do is stare at my computer screen and be reminded that i have no money to do anything and that the person i love the most is 4 hours away and i have no way to see them.

Also, to my Friend Koby, I'm sorry that ive been ignoring you. its not you at all hon, i just get like this when I'm depressed. i know its a bad habit and that's what your there for, but When i get like this i cant help but be alone and just wallow in it. I just pray to god that things change soon, cause I'm slowly reaching another breakdown and its not going to be too pretty.

Just saying whats up. Nothing much going on here. Schools out, fought the hurricane, and sence i have a break I'm animating again, so hopefully we'll see the weekly animations like a promised. so,um, im sleepy... go away.

Hi everyone Just saying hi, thought i would get my pops death off the screen. im doing good. Just very busy. ill be posting more work later yaknow.